Post No. 3

Yes, there's more to the story.

All this happened this November. By this time it was Thanksgiving and we traveled to visit family for the holiday. We rode part of the way with family and on the way home my husband seemed quieter than usual. We were holding hands in the back seat of his brother's vehicle and I asked him what he was thinking about. He said he wasn't thinking about anything.

Once we got to our own car it was another hour to get home. I decided to tell him what I had realized, that I wasn't just wanting to have a baby to fulfil his wishes anymore, that I wanted to have a baby just as he did. That's when he told me that his answer - that he wasn't thinking of anything - in his brother's car, wasn't true. He hadn't wanted to mention this in front of his family, he said, but he'd been thinking about the possibility of us having a baby. He'd been praying for guidance.

The thing is, we want to make sure that what we do God's will in all things. We've lived our lives on our own schedules and desires before and it never works out well. For right now we've made a plan to wait 9 months and then go off birth control. However, we also fully believe that if God wants us to get pregnant before that, birth control will not stop Him. If we are not meant to get pregnant after we go off birth control, we won't get pregnant.

So that's what this blog is about. We've decided that 10 months from now, or three more three month packs of birth control, we'll stop taking those little blue pills and let what happens happen.We've also decided not to tell anyone until after we are actually pregnant.

The purpose of the blog is to:

1. document our journey to becoming pregnant and beyond
2. provide an outlet for me since I won't be talking about this to anyone other than my husband - at least until I am knocked up.